Behind the Hidden Door
Written August 27, 2023 It's quite a thing to go through life changes and if we live to see them, we will all go through them. As a young person my body changed from a child into a woman's body, then a mother's body. Now at 50, sans womb, it's changing into yet another woman's body: a middle aged woman's body. Changing too are my emotions and abilities and desires on how to spend my time. It's all hidden from me: the ideas of who I will be now that my focus has changed in life and that I'm not just a mother any longer- not needed as one either. That's a big change. I love being a wife but my heart is a bit sad over no longer being a mother to young people. It's not the same to love my grandchildren and hand them back to their parents without as much of myself to pour into their lives. I know my time of that is gone, and it's bittersweet. It's a blessing to get to love them I know, but it's also hard to know I can't keep them as